My Superman

Brandon Routh has extremely good features. period. Unfamiliar name? Aah. You have not watched Superman, have you? You should! It was really really really good. As in, there were its moments of suspense, of humour, of love, of cool special effects, of drama.. of meaning. It had a pretty good storyline. I first went quite skeptical, thinking it’s going to be one of those Superman movies, and gosh, was I wrong! Because the first sight to behold was the all cute, all macho, extremely gaya Superman. The way he talks, the way he walks, when he flies, and when he has his few poses. Wah. *pengsan*. Oh, ESPECIALLY when his hair is falling all over his face. WAH *double pengsan*. If you ask me, I think he looks quite a bit like Christopher Reeves. Can’t tell what, but he bears some bits of resemblance to the legendary Superman Christopher.

I give it a four out of five stars (and I’m normally stingy with my stars). I have labelled this show a Lydia-recommended-movie.

Who defines what’s normal?

I can’t recall if today was the first time I spoke to a rape victim, but today, I had a chat with a rape victim, a girl no older than me, who over the years of being forced to marry her perpetrator, living in an abusive marriage and forced to raise 2 children. It’s times like these which just hits hard on your face of the harsh reality that’s in the world today, not merely a depiction of some famous celebrity acting out a miserable character in those movies talking about abuse. It’s real. In front of me, sat a girl who endured those years with that man, who lived every second of her life in fear – afraid that she could lose her life anytime. Her life has changed since that day. She no longer see men as they are, and on top of trying to cope with her pain and suffering, she has become a mother. She had other lives to protect, to shelter, to care for.

I started my psychiatric posting this week. I have to admit, it was difficult. I stepped into the wards rather apprehensive… I had that imagery in mind of people who are psychologically unstable walking aimlessly around in the wards, with who-knows-what running through their thoughts, and the capability of suddenly bursting into violence and injuring the people around (e.g. medical students). Well, I wasn’t completely off in my prediction. The people did look queer, they did act strange, with weird thoughts, personalities and mannerisms. I’m yet to see one who would explode into violence (I pray I do not have to in the course of my posting).

But then, as I continued to observe and gave it some thought. Y’know they’re no different from you and me. They’re somebody’s mother, somebody’s father, somebody’s daughter or son. They had a life, they had a job, they still lived. They’re human beings too – not some evolved creatures whose personality changed into something we didn’t like, therefore we have to keep them behind locked doors. Most of all, they were also God’s loved people. Wow. It strucked me. God loves them too – no matter how ‘crazy’ they are. It was a difficult fact to swallow, in fact, I’m still trying to swallow it..

But if you really think about it. Who defines what’s normal? Who defines that our characters, your thoughts, my insights are normal? In fact, you could even come to realize that all of us have a psychiatric problem to some small degree or another.

I anticipate many interesting days ahead..

Rescue

hey. are you free this Saturday at 6:30pm?

YOU, yes, YOU are invited to my church. My youth group is organizing our cool night, which we themed RESCUE, in which we worked with a group of university students from America (they’re from University of Mobile (pronounced Mobil), Alabama). so yeah. COME COME COME!!! I’m personally inviting YOU now (it’s a rare thing).. and I expect to see YOU there. Yes! YOU…

PS: It’s a good opportunity to come and see long-lost-me and see how fat I’ve become too! lol.

oh btw, if you wait a little longer at this site, you will see the promo video playing at the left column in the media player. I’ve attached my church map too.

Who am I

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

A night of worship

Went back to kl yesterday to attend a worship night led by a group from Germantown Baptist Church (no, they’re not from Germany), which was held in my church. Wow. It was a truly awesome night – and apart from being blessed last night, singing tunes to "Famous One", "Blessed be Your name", "In Christ alone", my favorite "How great is our God" and "He reigns" (THESE are really good songs – go check them out), I learnt a couple of valuable lessons too:

1. Music IS quite essential for worship. Yes, one may worship without music, but it enhances worship so so so so so much.

2. the MORE the better.. never underestimate the quality of quantity. the more instruments IS always better…

3. GOD always answers prayers. I can never never never say that enough. I admit. I had my doubts prior to the actual night, God always proves my weak faith wrong. "God, THANK YOU!!! "

4. i reallly reaallly love the sound of a cello. sigh. I want to take it up – sigh, limited time. anybody knows anyone giving cello classes?

5. i still prefer gwai los, no doubt about that. hehee.. given a choice, i’ll take a gwai lo anytime *wink*

oh, and last thing, had a good look at the mirror before last night.. and I came to a conclusion that I need to lose weight. lol. I do!!!!