Archive for July, 2007

Life: All about trust

Posted in Thoughts on July 13, 2007 by Lydia
Why, trusting the very One who created life itself, of course! (Another wordy blog entry coming up, brace yourself)
Am just suddenly reminded of the song Babbie Mason sang – Trust His Heart
All things work for our good
Though sometimes we don’t see how they could
Struggles that break our hearts in two
Sometimes blinded to the truth
Many times in our lives, we’re all so caught up in the present, the now, and when things just do not look favourable at all, we look for something to blame it all on… and often at times, the easiest target was God. I wonder why we blame Him? Maybe because we know He is in charge of everything, how could He allow such circumstances to happen to us. Maybe because we know He is one who would not react to our blames – not like a flash of lightning would strike one dead the moment he mutters words of accusation against God. Little did we realize that He could do it, if He wills. He could cause a thousand lightning bolts, stronger than Zeus in the Greek stories, to fire upon us, He could cause the ground to part and eat us into the pit of darkness. He could, with a word, cause the world to crumble and disappear. But He chooses not to. Why? One word. Love. When we blame Him, it hurts him more than we’ll ever know or comprehend.
Our Father knows what’s best for us
His ways are not our own
So when your pathway grows dim
And you just don’t see Him
Remember You’re never alone
My dad spoke and reminded me of the famous story I grew up being all so familiar with. The man who dreamt that He walked with Jesus on the beach. Two footsteps when times are good. Only one when it’s moments of trials and pain. Man questions, "Why did you leave me?" Jesus replies, "I never left you. In fact, I carried you." I try to remind myself that nowadays, especially this week. When I really really felt that God was so distant, like He never heard at all, and when He never responded like He usually did.. I reminded myself. He’s not gone. He’s here. He’s lifting me up.
God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don’t understand
When you don’t see His plan
When you can’t trace His hand
Trust His heart
So we don’t always have to feel Him around. Like a child who first learns to cycle, her father steadies and holds her, but eventually he has to let go and let her ride. Because he doesn’t hold her anymore, doesn’t mean he’s not there. He’s still watching, ever ready, to catch her with his strong arms when she falls. He’s still there… no matter what happens.
He sees the masterplan
And He holds our future in His hand
So don’t live as those who have no hope
For our hope is found in Him
He designed and created it all. From our very beginning, He knows us through and through. Last week, Psalm 139 really spoke to me. He knitted me in my mother’s womb… He knows what we’re going to say even before we say it. He knows what lies ahead of us. More than He knows, He created it. He planned it! And as a Father who dearly loves His children, wouldn’t He create plans which brings His children happiness like a father planning a surprise holiday to a themepark for his kids?
We see the present clearly
But He sees the first and the last (here comes my favourite part..)
And like a tapestry
He’s weaving you and me
To someday be just like Him
So don’t be quick to blame God. We do not know what tomorrow holds…but we know the One who holds tomorrow (ooh, that’s the lyrics to another good song) and that thought is enough to carry us through the rest of our lives. May mine be a reflection of this.

A broken spirit and a contrite heart

Posted in Thoughts on July 10, 2007 by Lydia
I will I could just express everything I feel right now, right here, but I can’t. It’s too personal, too painful.
I wish there was something I could do to take it all away, but there isn’t.
The Lord is close to the broken hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. Psalm 34:18
…a broken spirit and a contrite heart, O God, You will not despise. Psalm 51:17
Be very near me, O GOD I pray.. I need You now more than ever.

Impossible?

Posted in Thoughts on July 6, 2007 by Lydia
What is impossible with men is possible with God.
-Jesus Christ (Luke 18:27)
Pretty big statement there, Lord.
            What is impossible with men?
                      The fact that we cannot fly on our own? The fact that we can never hold our breath for more than an hour and live?
                      The fact we can never survive without food for more than 3 months? The fact we can never know for sure our future?
Lord, what do you mean impossible?
                  You mean impossible as in, we can never part a sea 2500m deep to allow a whole nation to pass through?
                  Impossible as in not being able to feed 5000 men with just five loaves of bread and two fish?
                  Impossible as in the impossibility of breathing and living again, after being dead for 3 days?
Lord, I felt a lot of things were impossible for me.
        The fact that there is no way I could ever have survived 4 and a half years in medical school on my own strength?
        The fact that during the times when I felt from the bottom of my gut that I could never have made it, but impossibly did?
The fact that I am here today, about to face one of the largest examinations I’ve had to face so far, and am wondering how in the world I could ever learn all I need to know in under 5 weeks?
Lord, now that sounds impossible.  "What is impossible with men is possible with God."
But how? How is it possible? How was it possible that You could heal the lame, the blind and raised the dead just with the touch of Your hand? How was it possible You reversed the sun ten degrees back? How did You know my name and know my future, even before I was conceived?
HOW?
I guess how doesn’t really matter. The fact is You did. You did the impossible.
And You promised, that I too, can do everything, through You who never hesitates and faithfully grants me strength.
And all You ask of me… is to trust.
Those who know your name will trust in You, for You, Lord, have never forsaken those who seek You. (Psalm 9:10)
Trust the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understand (Proverbs 3:5)
               ..those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles..
               …will run and not grow weary, walk and not faint. (Isaiah 40:31)
                      Surely God is my salvation, I will trust and not be afraid. (Isaiah 12:2)
Lord, can I really trust You? Can You really help me do the impossible?
"Test Me in this…and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that you will not have room enough for it." – The Lord Almighty (Malachi 3:10)
IMPOSSIBLE? I don’t think so. I M:POSSIBLE