What do you do?

Ever gone through a rough patch in your life where everything just seems to crumble down bits by bits, like a crumbly apple pie, or like a sandcastle slowly ‘eaten’ and washed away by the waves of the sea? When what you held on to, felt so secure and strong, only to realize later, it’s just a dream, which easily evaporates and vanishes like any other dreams before?
What do you do when life gets tough? When each new day requires you to gather so much courage and strength just to survive, and the cycle repeating itself every morning? When you just wished that one scream of anguish could blow all the roadblocks and pain away? When it hurts so much, but can’t find any painkillers to numb it?
What do you do when you know that the very road you walk is one fully decorated with brokenness after the other, and also knowing that the very same road only leads to a dead end, yet there is no other road to take but that?
Got only one answer, that is to rely on the fact that God is God and still is God despite all that happens.
I’m reminded of the song we sang last Saturday "None but Jesus".
In the quiet, in the stillness
I know that You are God
In the secret of Your presence
I know there I am restored

When You call I won’t refuse
Each new day again I’ll choose

There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I live to bring Him praise

In the chaos, in confusion
I know You’re Sovereign still
In the moment of my weakness
You give me grace to do Your will

When You call I won’t delay
This my song through all my days

All my delight is in You Lord
All of my hope, all of my strength
All my delight is in You Lord

The appearance of this song came in the right time, where its words ring so true and so much stronger than before.
To allow Him to take control. That’s hard. I’ve always been one who needs control over my situations and problems – to know what’s going on, and what I can do solve it. But to let go? It’s tough. But required. I’m trying. I’m struggling.
I hope this isn’t just PMS working its crap on me.

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